Saturday, September 26, 2009

I Wish...

WARNING: Whiney baby post ahead!
I wish I had a running buddy to run with today. I want to do a long run; I NEED to do a long run of 15 or more miles. Lurking in the back of my mind is "doubt." Doubt that I still have the capability to even run-walk-run 15 or more miles without "falling apart." Doubt that I should run the Hartford Marathon in two weeks as a practice run for the NY City Marathon on November 1st (5 weeks, 1 day to go). By not successfully run-walk-running this past Sunday's scheduled 26 miler, I cannot lie: Doubt remains in my mind. My next scheduled long run is 28 miles, a run-walk-run the day after the Hartford Marathon. I want to defeat doubt. I want to nail a 15 miler or longer today and permanently erase doubt from my mind. I think left brain has teamed-up with doubt to do this. I hate left brain; I hate doubt; and I hate running long distances by myself. I was going to run a half marathon race tomorrow, but the weather forecast calls for thunderstorms. So today's the day I have to run. This sucks...

5 comments:

Carlee said...

I was not looking forward to my run at all and it ended up being really enjoyable out. it's perfect weather out there!

Marathonman101108 said...

Thanks! Now I have some motivation to go out!!

Kelly said...

I think all you need is a successful run to get back in the mindset. So go out there and beat it!
And bring an ipod or something with a good playlist. it works kinda like a running pal :)

Happy Feet 26.2 said...

I hope by now you have completed your run and are napping with satisfaction that "the run is done."

lindsay said...

wahhhhhhhhh. quit getting yourself worked up over a run! that's my job! i sure do it plenty enough, i promise. :)

i know, it's hard sometimes to just get out and do it. i do enjoy the feeling of accomplishment during/after a long run, and i'm sure you do too!

you've put in a lot of work. no doubts allowed!